i didn't know what to call this post

I haven't written in days, hahha.
I don't know, but there are so many things I want to say... so many things have been going on, both inside my head, and outside of it, but I can't say any of it. Not here at least.

Hahha man I need my 'buddy' :P, it's my time of need and he's probably too lazy to go online -_- the last time i chatted with him was like last week, so many things have happened since then wakakakka.
Well it's not like I tell him anything at all. In fact, I don't tell him anything, it's just that chatting with this person is like the best form of stress-relief for me (since he's not there now, I'm dumping all of my stress onto this post).
Hahhaha I hope he's not reading this.
(For my buddy: Anyways if 'you' are reading this now, thanks a lot. You might not know this, but yeah... hahhaha it's fun chatting with you, and as much as I hate to admit it, I miss it, hahahha.)
The word buddy seems so gay hahahah. Let's just call him my friend, because he is.
He's probably ONE of my most trusted friends. I know he doesn't tell anyone anything that I have ever told him because in truth, he has nothing to say about me to anyone, but the fact that I have an extra pair of ears is great.
It's even better that he's who he is, a person who listens but doesn't do anything about anything at all but still responds and is still caring wakakkaka.

Enough about my so-called friend.
I've been a mess these couple of days. Being where I am now, is just not the same as what it was like a few months ago. I don't know, but there's something different. It's the feeling you get when you know you've been forgotten by someone special to you, a hole drilled through your body(not literally), or something like that. It's just a similar feeling, not really how I feel. I don't even know the reason why I'm like this, but it seems to happen once a while.
I guess that's the bad thing about everything being great. When everything is great, nothing can get better, so it gets worse.
Huahuahauhaua. This is the emptiness people fill by watching dramas, reading books, listening to music, but I guess the real way to fill that hole in your life is to feel connected to God again.

Anywaaaaaaaaayyyy I don't think I have anything else to say. I'm just updating my blog as usual. I don't actually expect anyone to read my blog, and in truth, i blog because blogging helps me emotionally, hahah. I reduce stress and anxiety this way and it actually works. Another reason I blog is for fun and to keep track of all those great, and not-so-great moments in my life.

I want to go to Europe, right now, with my family. Hahah how random.